Silent Muse

Friday, Jul. 20, 2007 [9:59am]

Another year has passed. My age has leaped one digit from it’s previous number. I’m twenty-five now. I still don’t feel old. I never really have. People always think I’m younger than I am anyways, so it’s no wonder I forget I’m twenty-five too... But enough about age. Let’s discuss my favorite topic... Raederle...

*sigh*

Why must it be so difficult to maintain a simple relationship with another human being? Especially when the topics of interest are similar? ...Silly question... I have the answer though.

You see, my entire life I’ve been the nice guy. The guy who doesn’t speak his mind so that others feelings would be spared. I always sought a way to avoid conflict no matter how big or small the opposition was. I’ve always given in to the demands in order to keep things in order. If no one gave into a demand, then nothing would get done, right?

I thought I was one of the good guys, and I was proud of it... Until I met Brianna. I gave in so much because I thought it was my duty as a good boyfriend to treat his girlfriend as a goddess... But in turn, none of my efforts were appreciated. I just got walked on and dumped.

It took me three to four years of hate and bitterness to realize that nobody cares about you (me)... "Everybody"... The hate and the bitterness continued all until one day I met an amazing young woman named Raederle Phoenix West. I sincerely believed that this beautiful girl was my counterpart, a possible life partner... A true friend. But no... I was wrong... I was misled. I was tricked once again by the feminine mind. Again I’ve been taken advantage of and again... I feel not appreciated.

swallow a knife